I felt in 2019 that 2020 would be my year. I had visited my father and came away from the whole experience inspired in a new way to just be myself. Not only to be myself, but that I had value as me. When I visited the land to which I belong ( where I was born), it was like my soul came back into my body and I felt prepared to grow.
Ahh, then 2020. I froze and scrambled like many of us. Then the murder of George Floyd pushed me to my knees. I couldn't even do singing bowl sessions, it was just too painful. Facing the things in my heart that needed to change while learning how to navigate a pandemic alone was more than challenging. It was soul cleansing.
I spent a great deal of time figuring out who I am. I think that the gift of going home was the beginning of a year long process of cleaning up and out.
One to the best times that helped me through this time was my yoga students, seriously. They needed me as much as I needed them. We clung together on ZOOM like we were on a sinking ship and learning how to swim. We cried, yelled, laughed and clung to each other.
Through all of this, one over arching message was simplify and step in. Simplify my life, every part of it. I moved out of the state capital and into a tiny town that seriously has one stop light and I live on a dirt road. I work out 6 days a week along with teaching. I have stopped the mass marketing and started creating content.
And now I am stepping in. At my work, they have seen the change in me. I have delighted and stepped into my role as a mentor and elder. It feels good to help and share my knowledge with application that those younger than me can use. Now it is time to step in as that elder to my other communities. I am thinking of my legacy and I don't want any of this knowledge to be lost when my time is over. My legacy is that I want to leave it all here, for you to use.
While I am leaving it all here for you, I will keep hanging around the young people and listening to their stories, learning more, sharing more. An elder is not one who sits in a chair spouting wisdom, but one who moves with the flow of life, pointing out the joy and calming the rough patches.
I look forward to hearing from you and your words of encouragement will be welcome as I journey forward , taking you with me always!
After spending decades of research with somatic expression, emotional and mental health , recovery, I realized it is time for me to begin to put it all together, in one place.